The afterglow

I watched as the sun set, shadows creeping as the sun prepared to sleep in this part of the world. I watched the skies burn with colors, from azure to a bright orange to a tinge of purple and pink. Everyone was busy. Busy working, busy walking, busy thinking, busy dreaming, busy living their life like they own it. As I behold the beauty of the passing of the light and the coming of the night, people around me hustled and bustled away, tugging with them their luggage of worry, fear, anxiety, disappointment and hopelessness. I hope that they would stop for awhile. To sit with me, to watch with me. As the skies burn aflame and gradually die to midnight blue, as the stars come out to play, as the moon says its hello, as the sun promises for a new day tomorrow, I hope that someone would also realize the mysterious beauty of life. I hope that people would appreciate the simple, beautiful things around them. And that they would appreciate the bad, unfortunate things, too, for out of it surely something comes out nice. They were too consumed by the world today. The customs, the culture, the trends. Everyone was too consumed that they didn’t see the afterglow of the light on their faces, on their shoulders, in their soul. I hope they see the things that I see. What they see was unsightly, but what I see is beauty

Thoughts of the Day.

I just want to live in a world where the skies are not polluted with chemtrails,where I can question the government and the OBVIOUS flaws right in front of our faces without being immediately shut down and called paranoid. I wish we didn’t have the mainstream media suffocating us with pointless ideals of self and what is important. I wish we understood feeding everyone on the planet is more important than iPhones and material bullshit.  I wish when I was out in the world I could see people talking to each other rather than ALL being sucked into their screens like some sort of zombies. 

I wish people paid attention to what is going on around them. Like the fact that our food is poisoned by giants like Monsanto, and our water has flouride in it which is destroying our pineal glands (our third eye, our ability to see beyond the veil)! I wish people saw beyond party lines and realized they are a way to divide and conquer the masses. Do you REALLY see any change when we have a Democrat or a Republican in office? Or do you see the same bullshit we have always? 

As far as I can see we are still ruled by our lord and masters. WE are still the peasants who are taken advantage of, who are blind to the bars which surround all of us!!!!! 

I wish people all gardened, and loved each other. I wish we could live in a world of happiness rather than one of greed, hate, war! All these things which benefit the elite. All these things are not done because we the world NEED them. Despite what you are made to believe it is possible to have a better world. It is possible. We can make the changes necessary, not without challenge of course, but it can happen. 

You are not an ignorant fool. You are not limited because you are human, and you are certainly not imperfect. You do not need to be anything but yourself. You do not need all these material objects to make you worthwhile. YOU HAVE AN INFINITE UNIVERSE at your FINGERTIPS! Do you realize this? Do you realize you have the power to change the world? To be whoever you want to be? TO be good? To bring unconditional love to yourself and all those around you? YES YOU!     You do not have to go along with the madness simply because the madness exists! IT IS WRONG, and I believe deep down many know this.

That is the problem. Those select few who run our world have made us believe we are insignificant, and deserving of the horror that rules our lives. That is a lie! Listen to your spirit telling you there is more to this life and this world than living in sadness and compliance for the darkness. 



i always compare people to my friends at home. don’t get me wrong, i appreciate everything my friends here have for me and i was love them forever for that; but when you’re spent 7 years with the exact same group of friends it’s hard not to compare. i always wish i was back with them and i was tell people that they’re the ones who get who i really am. but then i facetime a bunch of them tonight while they’re getting ready and i can feel something’s changed. it started with them listening to a completely different type of music to what they used to, then with them having different sayings and conversation topics. i couldn’t help but wonder what they must think of me now? do they think i’ve changed? they didn’t even speak to me for half the time i was on, and sat listening to their conversations. i guess i just thought that time would stand still while i was gone, that they wouldn’t grow up… but they have and now i’m scared that they won’t like me, because i truly haven’t grown up that much. if anything, i feel i’ve just gone backwards. my mind’s a mess. i don’t know who i actually am anymore. 

Dear Heart.

Dear heart,

Why do you still harbor feelings for him?
Please stop…
I’ve already given you good enough reasons to fall out of love…
So why do still insist in being so hopeful & full of affections for him?

He doesn’t like you back as much as you do & I proved it to you.
What we thought was true is an illusion. You fall too easily.
So please…stop hurting…
Your making me sad…
You’ve been hurt too much & you are very frail, & this has probably been one of the most painful..
I’m sorry I’m putting you through this…

But, there will be someone else, I don’t know who or when we’ll find him, but he will fill you with the best kind of love there is that is also accompanied with bliss, certainty, & so many other good feelings that you’ll never hurt again.

So please, say goodbye to the one who’s been residing in you, my heart, for the past couple of months to make room for that “one” we dreamed of for so long.
I’m sad too but, I will keep a part of him that will always have a place within you, my heart.
I can never forget him…but I don’t deserve him….
Even though he has given me so much that he doesn’t know about…
So I hope that he will find happiness also.
He’s still very dear to me.
And that’s why I have to let him go.

Heart, I’m trying to do what’s best for you. Please understand & just let go. I hate feeling you ache…
It’s been really affecting me terribly.
Please be happy again…be patient & be strong….
We’ll find what we’ve longed for soon…I hope.