A REAL BOYFRIEND

Don’t care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.
I don’t care if you are a guy or a woman.
Just read this, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she
thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don’t let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she’s quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she’s beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don’t say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she’s scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn’t answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her’s and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it’s over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

– Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything
– When she’s mad hug her tight and don’t let go
– When she says she’s ok don’t believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she’ll remember you
– Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
-Treat her like she’s all that matters to you
– Stay up all night with her when she’s sick
– Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it’s stupid
– Give her the world.
– Let her wear your clothes
-When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her
-Let her know she’s important.
– Don’t talk about other girls around her
– Kiss her in the pouring rain
– When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
“Whose ass am i kicking baby?”

Lost.

i always compare people to my friends at home. don’t get me wrong, i appreciate everything my friends here have for me and i was love them forever for that; but when you’re spent 7 years with the exact same group of friends it’s hard not to compare. i always wish i was back with them and i was tell people that they’re the ones who get who i really am. but then i facetime a bunch of them tonight while they’re getting ready and i can feel something’s changed. it started with them listening to a completely different type of music to what they used to, then with them having different sayings and conversation topics. i couldn’t help but wonder what they must think of me now? do they think i’ve changed? they didn’t even speak to me for half the time i was on, and sat listening to their conversations. i guess i just thought that time would stand still while i was gone, that they wouldn’t grow up… but they have and now i’m scared that they won’t like me, because i truly haven’t grown up that much. if anything, i feel i’ve just gone backwards. my mind’s a mess. i don’t know who i actually am anymore.